2 years ago
Friday, July 8, 2011
Cross Roads
I don't know what it is, but when you reach a certain point in your life a lot of things lay in balance. Sometimes there comes a point that you feel like you are at a cross road and you don't know which road to take. I feel like I am that cross road.
What brings a person to that point in their lives when they don't know which way to go?
Do they stay with what is familiar and safe or do they take a chance on something brand new and not so safe? These are questions I find myself with.
I have no answers to my questions, I only know how I feel.
Right now I feel lost, like a big part of me is missing. I have always been a person
who had no problems choosing my paths or my directions. I always Knew where I wanted to be in my life. Right now I don't know where I want to be.
When a new opportunity approaches you do you cease the day and take the opportunity or do you let it pass you by?
Do you let go of everything that is familiar and take a chance on something new?
What if choices you make hurt the people that you love? Would you still take that new opportunity? Life is about being happy as someone very special once told me.
I want to be happy. Here is a big question of my day, am I responsible to make other people happy? Or am I responsible for only making myself happy?
I have prayed about my questions and I tried listening to the Holy Ghost.
Maybe I'm not really listening for the answer. Or maybe I'm afraid of the answer.
If I'm so afraid of change, why at this point in my life am I being faced with these questions?
So this brings me to my cross roads. So my dear friends ask this of you who read and follow my blog. Please pray for me that I find the road that I need to take.
The road that will bring me love and happiness.
What brings a person to that point in their lives when they don't know which way to go?
Do they stay with what is familiar and safe or do they take a chance on something brand new and not so safe? These are questions I find myself with.
I have no answers to my questions, I only know how I feel.
Right now I feel lost, like a big part of me is missing. I have always been a person
who had no problems choosing my paths or my directions. I always Knew where I wanted to be in my life. Right now I don't know where I want to be.
When a new opportunity approaches you do you cease the day and take the opportunity or do you let it pass you by?
Do you let go of everything that is familiar and take a chance on something new?
What if choices you make hurt the people that you love? Would you still take that new opportunity? Life is about being happy as someone very special once told me.
I want to be happy. Here is a big question of my day, am I responsible to make other people happy? Or am I responsible for only making myself happy?
I have prayed about my questions and I tried listening to the Holy Ghost.
Maybe I'm not really listening for the answer. Or maybe I'm afraid of the answer.
If I'm so afraid of change, why at this point in my life am I being faced with these questions?
So this brings me to my cross roads. So my dear friends ask this of you who read and follow my blog. Please pray for me that I find the road that I need to take.
The road that will bring me love and happiness.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Getting ready for Act 2, the show must go on.
My life is a lot like a theater. Sometimes I can remember the words and sometimes well I just go "blank".
I have been trying to improve myself since I'm no longer working and try and make the new and improved version of myself.
I know that just like the theater to be better at anything you have to practice a lot, and you fumble a lot, but you get back up and do it again.
After all "Practice does make Perfect'.
Or in my case a lot of practice.
I've set some personal goals for myself this year and one of those goals is to lose weight. I don't want to just loose weight I want to be a healthier version of myself.
So every morning I get up, and I roll out of bed and I exercise for the day.
Some days I exercise twice a day. I want to make sure the fat is flying off the body like no ones business.
I think losing weight is a big deal because it is not just diet change it is a life changing.
I know that for me I already have so many strikes against me medically that if I don't change soon and fast I won't be around much longer.
I come from a long line of Miera's and Albo's who genetics I've been lucky to get.
Some of the genetics have been great like my skin is nice and smooth and young looking. That is the Italian from my Mother's side of family.
I also got my Mom's high cholesterol and heart problems, and from my Dad's side I got the diabetes and the blood that clots also known as Factor Five Leiden.
The blood disorder is what caused me to get a blood clot in my brain.
If I would of known of these disorders at the beginning of my life I could of prevented some of the damage that happened to me when I had my children. There could of been some sort of prevention. The good news is now that my children and my family can all be tested and prevent anything negative happening to them when they have children.
I have been trying to improve myself since I'm no longer working and try and make the new and improved version of myself.
I know that just like the theater to be better at anything you have to practice a lot, and you fumble a lot, but you get back up and do it again.
After all "Practice does make Perfect'.
Or in my case a lot of practice.
I've set some personal goals for myself this year and one of those goals is to lose weight. I don't want to just loose weight I want to be a healthier version of myself.
So every morning I get up, and I roll out of bed and I exercise for the day.
Some days I exercise twice a day. I want to make sure the fat is flying off the body like no ones business.
I think losing weight is a big deal because it is not just diet change it is a life changing.
I know that for me I already have so many strikes against me medically that if I don't change soon and fast I won't be around much longer.
I come from a long line of Miera's and Albo's who genetics I've been lucky to get.
Some of the genetics have been great like my skin is nice and smooth and young looking. That is the Italian from my Mother's side of family.
I also got my Mom's high cholesterol and heart problems, and from my Dad's side I got the diabetes and the blood that clots also known as Factor Five Leiden.
The blood disorder is what caused me to get a blood clot in my brain.
If I would of known of these disorders at the beginning of my life I could of prevented some of the damage that happened to me when I had my children. There could of been some sort of prevention. The good news is now that my children and my family can all be tested and prevent anything negative happening to them when they have children.
